New Years Resolutions are always fun to make. I’ve made them every year since I was seven years old, but have never managed to keep any of them. Sad, I know. Though, I’m in good company. The majority of people who make resolutions abandon them by the third week in January.
Anyway, I hope to change this for 2015. I have a lot of growing to do, a lot of knowledge to soak in, and a lot of fun to have.
5. Become More Organized
I have the organizational skills of a newborn chimp. I have a countless number of file folders labeled: article research, rough drafts, personal poems, random bursts of emotions, dream journals, doodles and so on. I have half finished notebooks, forgotten stories, and random illegible crap that I write half- asleep. I have tubs of books I haven’t read and drawers of mail I just won’t throw away. I find old poems I wrote in HS, that reflect how F’d up my mind was at that time and other random tidbits from those years. I have so much crap that I have to weed through to get to what is actually good by my standards. This is part of the reason, I decided to erase my flash drive. I have so much stuff to revise and edit, that I didn’t need to add anything else onto it.
- I plan on limiting myself to ONE writing project at once. That’s all that my mind can handle. When I write multiple things at the same time, the quality decreases drastically. So, in 2015, I’ll only daydream about one make believe world at a time.
- I also plan on maintaining a better posting habit for my blog. I stopped posting for awhile, and as a result I’m way behind the number of posts I should be at for six months. I should have about 26 entries (about one post per week). I tried to catch up, but my posts have been pretty random. They weren’t cohesive or well thought out. I was posting just to say that I posted. I also hope to upgrade my domain next month,so that I can have full control over the layout and design of it. There’s only so much you can do with the free options, but you get what you pay for.
4. Stop Procrastinating:
I’ll fill in this part later. No, I’m kidding- kinda. This has literally been my attitude for everything I’ve done this year. “I’ll do my essay the night before it’s due,” or “I’ll study for my 6:00 P.M exam at 1:.M. the same day.” It’s a nasty habit that I’ve allowed myself to slip into. I’m going to try my hardest to break it in 2015.
3. Get Healthier :
YES! I’m so looking forward to getting healthy in 2015. I’ve gone back and forth all year with working out. I would start for a couple of weeks, then slack off. Start. Stop. Start.Stop. Start. Stop. My body didn’t know whether to lose weight or to gain it. Back in June, I had a couple health scares because I contracted pneumonia. I also would wake up in the middle of the night with my heart racing and it scared the crap out of me. One doctor told that it was a result of adrenaline that was from my body fighting off the pneumonia. Another told me that it was a result of too much caffeine. Whatever it was, I don’t want it to happen again.
I plan on becoming more active. I actually enjoy exercising – especially if it’s something fun like a Zumba video or dance- cardio. My problem is remaining consistent and giving up junk food.
I also hate getting up early on days I don’t have to go anywhere. My sleeping habits are terrible, and I’m surprised I’m actually an adult. LOL. I stay up half of the night, sleep until 10:00 A.M and sit with my computer , dreaming of the day I can have my own family and travel around the world promoting my book.
I’m 100% percent sure that my issues with confidence stem from my body issues. I’ve never thought that I was ugly. I mean, everyone has had days where their hair waged a war on them and just wouldn’t act right. I’ve had days where my skin freaked out because I ate a candy bar and as punishment decided to break out. We’ve all had “ugly days.” But, in general, I’m okay with my face. I actually like the way that I look. I don’t like my, weight, however. I’ve never been completely comfortable with my body.
Do you know that in Twenty years, I will have barely any pictures of myself from my teen years? I have almost no pictures of myself with my little four year old Baby Buddy, Ja’ Kiyah(niece). I have almost no pictures of my mom and I. I hated taking pictures. It never dawned on me that one day I will regret that decision. That day is today.
Starting tomorrow, January 1, 2015, I’m going to change that. And. I’m. EXCITED.
I’m starting my new workout regimen and am going to document my progress over the course of a year. I’m actually thinking about making a(mini) blog about it. I would update four times next year in three month intervals: March 1, June 1, September 1, and December 1.
The halfway point would come just in time for my 21st Birthday. (6/4/15) :)
Do you know the thing I’m looking forward to the most? SHOPPING! I can’t wait to go shopping and buy all of the frilly dresses and skirts and other trinkets I’ve always loved, but wouldn’t actually buy because I didn’t like how I looked in it.
2. Have More Fun
If I’m not comfortable around someone I will not be talkative. I withdraw and stay to myself. But, if you have the misfortune of gaining my trust, I will never shut up. I love to laugh and make people laugh. I love life and I love to have fun. My mom affectionately calls me “Ms. Giggles” when we’re getting along, and “Megaphone” when we’re at odds. Both describe me very well.
I plan on taking a few deep breaths and stop stressing about every little thing. I will do as much that my anxiety allows me to do.
I can’t wait until my birthday – for two reasons. One, I want see how far I’ve gotten on my fitness journey. Two: I have no idea what I’m going to do or who I’ll be doing it with, but my birthday is going to be amazing next year. I can’t wait.
1. Grow Closer to God/ Make a Difference/ Better Myself
My faith has decreased a lot over the past year. I haven’t been diligent in my prayers or reading the bible. I just reached a point where I began to question everything. In my efforts to find answers, I created a lot of doubt. I did something similar in 2013. I’m still looking for answers, now.
I am very fortunate. Yes, sometimes I complain. But I know that I am blessed. I know that I have alot to be thankful for. I have my health, my limbs, my mother, my mind, a house etc.
In 2015, I plan on helping as many people that I can.
I only want to put out good things into the atmosphere. Words are powerful. Thoughts are powerful. What you see yourself as is what you will become. In 2015, I see myself as healthy, beautiful, kind, intelligent,and successful. I’ve spoken enough negativity into my life. 2015 will be different – but, in a good way.
Happy New Year, Everyone! God Bless You!!!!!!!