Using A Pen Name and Confidence

I’ve gone back and forth over the last couple of months whether to use a pen name or not. I guess I could say  that I’m not completely confident in my writing.
I actually have another blog where I write under a pseudonym. I think the anonymity gives me a freedom that I otherwise wouldn’t have. It’s on that blog, that I post things I would never have the guts to post on here. They’re stories that contain darker themes, or are just extremely personal to me. I’ve gotten some positive feedback, and that makes me feel good. But when I do, I sort of wish I had written it under my own name. It’s gratifying to know that someone likes something that I created.
It’s that source of freedom that allows me to be most creative, because I’m not worrying about whether my mother will come across it and cringe at scenarios that my mind created. I don’t have to worry if someone I know in real life will see it. It’s safe.
It wasn’t until being on WordPress a couple of months, that I realized how insecure I am with my writing. I don’t necessarily mean my ability to write, because I’m completely winging this whole thing. I’m literally learning as I go.   I mean that I would promise to update, and then get discouraged halfway through because I knew I wasn’t being true to myself. So I just never did.
I write for myself, but I would be lying if I said that positive reviews didn’t make me giddy inside. The same goes for not so good reviews. Reviews allow you to get a feel of what is and isn’t working. I love them all.
I’m trying to find a balance of how much I’m willing to share. For now,using a pen name adds a sense of protection.

Losing my writing mojo 

KBanks:

Sadly, I feel like this as well. It comes and goes. I think a part of me is afraid of rejection, which is why i don’t post as much as I would like. Also every since I started writing with a goal in mind, it isn’t as much fun. It’s tedious and frustrating,

Originally posted on Blondewritemore:

I have lost my writing mojo. If anyone finds it please send it back to me. I miss it a lot. I have looked everywhere, under the bed, in cupboards and even in boxes up in the attic. My writing mojo has gone!

It’s disappearance means that I have been plagued day and night with lots of negative thoughts like:

“I can’t write”

“I’m not good enough to be a writer”

“Might as well give up now”

“What is the point?”

“Another typo – can’t you write anything without a typo?”

“Think I might give up blogging as well”

Today over lunch I tried to think back to when I last had my mojo. It must have been a couple of weeks ago when I was pumping out words like there was no tomorrow. Blog posts were doing well and ideas for posts were pinging loudly in my head. The…

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Delirium Book Review: (Contains Spoilers, Kinda)

11614718Delirium, by Lauren Oliver, is set within a dystopian future in which love is considered a disease. Not just any disease, no. It’s the most vile, inhumane disease that exists. Better known as amor deliria nervosa, it’s been deemed the central cause of every bad thing that’s ever happened. As a result, everyone must undergo a lobotomy at age eighteen to rid themselves of it. Underage males and females are kept separate.  Most music and entertainment has been completely banned, except those explicitly stated in The Book of Shh- the manual that dictates what can and cannot be consumed for leisure. It also warns of the dangers of love.  The protagonist, Lena, is about three months away from the required ‘procedure” that all eighteen year olds must go under. It will rid her of her ability to love. Things are fine at first. Lena can’t wait until the procedure, remembering what how damaging love was to mother. Her family is infamous in their city due to her mother’s suicide. Her mom was never “cured” despite undergoing the cure several times. As a result, Lena lives with her aunt.  She’s seen as the more level-headed one between her and her best friend, Hannah who is always sneaking out and going to forbidden parties. That is, until she meets Alex, a guard that works for the city. Only He awakens something in Lena that is completely foreign to her, a world filled with underground parties and forbidden music. She soon learns that Alex is a part of the resistance and that his job is just a cover. As their romance blooms, she decides that she cannot bare to go through with “The Cure,” and can’t picture a life without Alex. They make plans to escape into the wilds -basically exile outside of the city where they can be free to love. The book chronicles their escape that almost kills them both.

Book 2, Pandemonium, picks up showing the severe consequences of their decision.

Let me just say, Lauren Oliver writes some of the most beautiful prose I think I’ve ever read.  This is book one of a Trilogy. I completed it in less than 24 hours. I had a hard time taking breaks even though my eyes were tired. The premise of love being a disease intrigued me. I had never read anything by Oliver before, and I wasn’t disappointed. The ending will leave you in tears and rushing to order/checkout/ borrow book two.

5/5 stars all the way!

Book Review: Mindspeak By: Heather Sunseri

Mind Speak ReviewMindSpeak, by Heather Sunseri, is a thrilling read. I would recommend it to anyone who reads YA. It’s geared towards young adults with a heavy sci-fi back-story.The story is told from Lexi’s point of view. She has a secret ability to influence people by inputting thoughts into their head – mind-speaking. Lexi has been hidden away at a prestigious boarding school by her father, an infamous geneticist, who has dabbled in controversial research. She’s been told that this was for her safety. Besides a grandmother suffering from Alzheimer’s in a nursing home, her father is her only immediate family. She finds herself in danger after he ends up dead. All she knows is that people are after her father’s research journals and that she must find them before they do. The arrival of an incredibly handsome student named Jack may be the only person who can give her the answers she needs. She becomes captivated by his eyes and he’s the only person who seems to understand her. But can she trust him? He holds secrets of his own and with each question that gets answered, two more arise.

I really enjoyed this book from beginning to end. The action doesn’t really pick up until about halfway through, but it’s worth the wait. For the amount of scientific information in the book, you’d think it would be filled with difficult science jargon. It’s not. Heather Sunseri masterfully explained each topic in a way that was easy to understand. She kept me on my toes the entire time. Each time I thought I knew how the story was going to develop, she threw in another curve-ball. I, like Lexi, had a hard time figuring out Jack’s motives while silently rooting for them as a pair. By the time I reached the last third of the book, I couldn’t finish it fast enough. Overall, I give it it 4/5 stars.

Cons:

The only gripe I have with this book is that the ending wasn’t exactly resolved, although many questions are answered. It’s book one of a trilogy. I’m guessing that she picks up right where she left off in book two. I can’t wait to start on book two!

Book One, Mindspeak is available for free as an eBook on Amazon.

http://www.amazon.com/Mindspeak-Heather-Sunseri-ebook/dp/B00B5N9SZ4

Changes/Post Schedule/New Writing

Hello! Being that it’s the last day of January, I thought now would be a good time to tighten up my blog. I don’t think that I have the stamina to post everyday. I just do not have enough content prepared for that kind of schedule. Kudos, to people who post everyday, though. I envy you!

I’ve decided that with school and working on becoming healthier, three days a week is good for me.

I’ve been writing all month in an effort to have new writing to publish on here. That is the main reason I only posted once in January. Additionally, I would like to introduce  a couple new elements into my blog.  I am officially a book reviewer for Book Look Bloggers. I’m excited to start posting reviews on my blog once per week. I also am trying to break into the world of Freelance Writing. Any articles that I manage to get published will be linked back here as well. I’m also enrolled in a couple of online writing courses in an effort to improve and refine my writing.

As of today, my posting schedule will be as follows: Effective February 1, 2015.  (hopefully, I’ll stick with it)

  • Mondays will be designated for Responses to Writing Prompts, Flash Fiction, Poems, and/or DAYDREAMS (I’ll explain further down the post.)
  • Wednesdays will be for my Short Story installments and/or Updates on my novel.
  • Saturdays will be solely for Book Reviews.

Now that we got all of that boring stuff out-of-the-way, let’s get to the fun part!

Writing Projects:

Yes, that is Projects with an S. I know that I said that I would only work on one project at a time, but apparently my mind enjoys being scrambled. I have a really short attention span and when I get bored, I start a new project. Oh, well.

  1. Short Story: A young woman has a hidden ability to see people’s soul-mates by looking into their eyes. When she sees her own reflection in the eyes of the last person she expected, her life gets turned upside down.
  2. Children’s Book: TBA
  3. Novel: TBA

Also, I want to tie up the loose ends on the two stories that I never updated. I don’t want to leave anything already posted unfinished. Considering one of them is a Christmas story and it’s almost February, you’d think I’d leave it be? Wrong. We’re all going to be eating Valentines Day Candy when we find out how Ronny broke Santa’s sleigh… Together.

Daydreams: 

I’m not sure why I felt the need to explain what I meant when I said I’ll be posting my daydreams. I just thought that it would be fun to post the little scenarios I spend way too much time envisioning in my head. Either that, or it’ll be building a case for me to become institutionalized. However, I’m going to be optimistic and go with FUN.

OH! From now on, I’m only posting writing related things on this blog. If you so happen to enjoy my routine break downs, and views on life you can subscribe to my secondary blog, https://thesewordsfrommyheart.wordpress.com/ . It’s full of emotions and heartache from a twenty year old college student who sometimes is afraid of her own shadow. Sounds fun, right?

Subscribe, Please! It’s for the Children!

Okay, I don’t have kids. Sorry.