In need of a Writing Buddy!

The title is really self- explanatory. I’m in need of someone to share my writing with and get feedback.

I’m really trying to keep improving my writing and would love it if fresh eyes could help me do so as far as making sure it’s grammatically correct and flows smoothly.

If you like, I could do the same for you.

If anyone is interested, comment below!

Lovely Blog Award Nominee

The other day I was both surprised and elated to find out that Marigold from  had nominated me for The Lovely Blog award. My surprise is mainly due to the fact that my blog is barely three months old. I’ve gained either 59 or 73 followers ( my stats say both and I can’t tell :) , and I’ve been having a blast. I’ve seen other blogs displaying awards they’ve won and I never thought I’d be nominated. I use this as both a personal and creative outlet. It gets rather cramped inside my head and when my thoughts lost their manners  had begun pushing and shoving, I knew it was time to start this blog.  Thank you Marigold, I truly appreciate it!

I have no idea if the deadline has passed ( or how this works but here goes:)

I’m supposed to Share Seven things about myself, nominate 15 other bloggers, and contact them: Here Goes Nothing!

Things about Me! (It’s a little all over the place, but as You read you’ll see I’M ALL OVER THE PLACE!!!!!!!!!!

1. I’m an emotional Girl: I have to be the most emotional person I’ve met. I can go through a broad range of emotions in a single day. I’m way too sensitive and words slice through me like razor blades. I don’t have “thick skin” and I’d rather spend my time alone than with people who I feel can hurt me.  The smallest thing can trigger feelings I’ve long forgotten about. I was bullied on almost a daily basis (in school) from the ages of 11-17. It’s left me a little scarred. As a result, I’ve developed social anxiety. Being around a lot of people makes me all jittery inside. I”m always second guessing myself, and never feel good enough. For a long time, I allowed it to hold me back; that’s over now. I’m ready to experience life to the fullest.

2. I’m a Goofball: I love to laugh and make other people laugh. It makes me happy! Even if I’m having a bad day, you will see me laughing. It not only masks my pain, it soothes it.

3. I’m a Procrastinator! : Yes… It’s true. I have developed a bad habit of putting stuff off. I’m trying to correct it. but it’s sooooo hard.

4. I’m Becoming the Ultimate Fangirl: Yes, I fangirl hard over The Big Bang Theory and One Direction! I’m obsessed with both and no one can tell me they aren’t both perfect!( so don’t try)! I frequent fan forums, use words like “stan” and “shipping” and spend my free time on Twitter and Tumblr, and Proud of it!… LOL

5. I’m a bit of a “nerd”: I love to read anything related to science and astronomy. I also love reading about psychology and the human mind. It’s fascinating.

6. My biggest fear is that I’ll never find a true friend.

7. I love Music! : I would listen to music 24/7 if I could actually be productive while doing so.

Bloggers I nominate: ( I actually don’t have 15 – hope that’s okay)

1. Linda G. Hill            Linda is one of the first bloggers I followed on here. She has a personal blog where she writes about her life and gives advice as well as an awesome fiction blog. Not to mention, she’s really nice.

2. A College Girl’s Confessions   I absolutely love Alexis’ Blog about the emotional roller coaster, embarrassing moments, and fun times us girls go through in college. She’s hilarious!

3. Sh*t My Nine Year Old Says  This has got to be one of the cutest blogs I’ve come across. A mom posts about the things her precocious son says.

4. Eric Conover           – Eric gives awesome advice and is a great storyteller!

5.  Novels and Nail Polish                 This blog combines two of my favorite things! Reading and nail polish. She uses novels as inspiration for her manicures and other pretty things. ( Not to mention, I love her theme :)

6. Impact52         –   This is a  very worthwhile blog about the Charitable organization. They’re changing the world one week at a time.

7.  A Spark In The Dark                Andrew’s blog is full of great writing tips! He also takes submissions and does revisions!

It took me a week to get this posted because school has been kicking my butt!  Thanks for reading!

Why Fall Rocks!

Every since I was a child, I’ve always loved the Fall. When I was younger, there was nothing better than hearing the leaves crunch beneath my feet as I walked to and from the school bus. (This was before school became a very unpleasant place for me.) I always liked when the teacher would change the Calender from August to September and replace the beach balls with leaves. I couldn’t wait until it became cool enough for me to need a light jacket in order to play outside. And, although my Christian Mother didn’t allow for the celebration of Halloween, there was always a lot of candy in our house around October 31.  That’s what Fall was for me as a child: Leaves, cool weather and Candy.

Nowadays, I still love it for those reasons. Although, now that I’m 20, I can have candy whenever I want. No one ever told me being an adult would be this much fun. (Insert Sarcasm Sign, courtesy of Leonard Hofstadter.) I must say, however, that I also have new reasons to appreciate the Fall. It may be that I over think things, but since my social life is almost non-existent what else am I supposed to do?

5.It Isn’t Summer:

Enough Said: To the 100 Degree weather and Monstrous Mosquitoes that plagued Alabama this year, Good Riddance!

4.Fall Clothing:

I’m not the most confident girl in the world. I’ve never been completely comfortable with my body. I’m 100% sure this has shaped my appreciation for Fall clothing. I love wearing layers and anything else that allows me to cover up unflattering parts of my body. It’s a  real pain, being a twenty year old in the summer- time and seeing all the cute clothes that I would never step out in public with.

The good thing is that, I’ve finally decided to change things.  This is the year, where I get healthy in both mind an body. I’m tired of treating life as a spectator sport. It’s time for me to become an active participant.

3.Fall Television:

 Can I just say, Thank God for Fall Television? This is the time of year when all the show’s I’ve become emotionally invested in make their return from the summer hiatus. I must admit, I watch A LOT of TV. I spend many hours each week glued in front of my television.  As of late, The Big Bang Theory, makes up the bulk of what I watch( hence, the Leonard Hofstadter reference). It was love at first sight: Four “Geeks” ( although I hate that word) and their beautiful neighbor. Who knew this would become my favorite show of all time? I can admit, I have a problem. I’ve joined a fan forum that I check everyday and I read fan fiction in between new episodes. I follow the cast members on twitter, and I scan media sites for spoilers. (This is a plea for help, by the way!) I’ve developed an obsession with the main character (Sheldon Cooper) and his relationship with Amy Farrah Fowler that borders on the psychological. The season 8 premiere is Monday, and I’m ecstatic!

I also cannot wait until the new ABC drama, How To Get Away With Murder, premieres. The plot looks really interesting. I think Shonda Rhimes will have another hit on her hand with this show. Don’t shoot me, but I never really could get into Scandal and if I have to watch Grey’s Anatomy again, I will stick a needle in my arm. I know.. I know. What’s wrong with me?

I am saddened, however, that Revolution isn’t in the lineup this year. It was canceled last spring after only two seasons. The ratings weren’t great but they weren’t horrible either. I won’t pretend to be an expert in ratings and all that mumbo jumbo but I Googled it and saw that it averaged about 7 millions views a week. To be fair, by comparison, The Big Bang Theory averaged about 20 million.  I know that the purpose of these shows is to make money, but these networks could at least pretend to care about the viewers. *Sigh*

2. Thanksgiving

I absolutely love Thanksgiving. I love the fact that there’s a holiday dedicated to being .thankful of all of our blessings. I have to remind myself everyday to be thankful for the little things. I’ve learned firsthand, how things can be taken away from you when they’re taken for granted. I also like how it brings people together. I definitely do not have a traditional family. We were never ones to sit around the table and eat dinner together.   However, it’s something about holidays that always make us act like a family( or at least stop arguing).

  • The Parade: I watch the Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade Every Year. I’ve always wanted to be in NY on Thanksgiving and see the parade in person. Hopefully, I’ll make it there next year.
  • The Food: Honestly, I don’t care for most “Thanksgiving type food.” I really only eat Turkey and Mashed Potatoes. I don’t enjoy dressing and Cranberry jelly cannot even touch my plate or I’ll freak out. I do, however, enjoy watching all the food being prepared by my mom. you know cause nobody wants me in the kitchen :( .

1. What it Symbolizes

In the fall, all of the trees and beautiful Gardens planted in the spring begin to wilt. The beautiful flowers and leaves that attract people to them fall to the ground and all that’s left is their bare branches and stalks. It looks as if it’s over for them. It looks as though it’s the end. In literature, Fall is often viewed as the end of a person’s prime and the advancement into old age

It’s not, though; It’s only the beginning. For in a few months, new life with spring forth from the roots. I look at fall as a time to shed all of the heart ache, pain, negativity, and dead weight  that’s been riding my shoulders all year. I can let it all go in the Fall, following Nature’s example, and  prepare myself for the next stage of my life.


Music and the Effect it has on My Writing

Music is a powerful thing. It’s long been used in movies to add suspense or to evoke emotions within us viewers. Personally speaking, it can drastically alter my mood and is usually a reflection of my current state of mind. I look to music much like writing to distract me from whatever is going on in my life at that moment. It’s always there to comfort me and, when needed, amplify a rotten mood I may be in. Nothing feels better that listening to a depressing song when I’m having a bad day. It makes it feel as if there’s someone who understands what I’m feeling, even though they’re not physically in the room.

As of late, I’ve noticed that I write better when I have music in my ears as opposed to complete silence (not that there’s EVER silence in my home). If the music is playing through the speakers, I get distracted. I cannot focus and my mind wanders off. But, if the music is coming through headphones, I can actually get out what I’m trying to say. I’m not sure if this is because all of the extraneous noise is blocked out or because of something else. I just know that the music calms me down. This isn’t true for all songs, however. It mainly applies to songs with slow to mid tempos. I cannot listen to Beyonce’s Single Ladies and write anything worth reading. I’m too busy dancing(awkwardly) in my seat. The same applies to most up tempo songs. They trigger the part of my  brain that tells me it’s time to put the pen down or move away from the computer and act silly. I do enough of that on my own, so I try to steer clear of those types of songs when I’m trying to be productive.

Today, I’ve done a good amount of writing. It’s Labor day, so I didn’t have any classes. I just got my new laptop, and I’ve been breaking it in the last couple of days. I’ve been writing and listening to music most of the day – mainly one song. It’s called After the Hurricane by Jazmine Sullivan. I’ve always loved this song but hadn’t listened to it in awhile. It popped up in my Youtube suggestions so I played it. I’ve listened to it at least twenty times today. It’s something about it that has a calming effect on me. Her voice is very crisp and soulful and the melody is soothing to my ears. The lyrics also resonate with me on a personal level and apply to several areas of my life. I feel like I’m in the middle of a hurricane psychologically. I’m stressed out to the point that it’s almost laughable. Still, I’m here and have a chance to create a better life for myself and find the happiness that always seems out of reach.

I’m actually listening to it as I type this and it’s honestly keeping me from sitting in the corner rocking back and forth. (I kid, of course; it’s not THAT bad). I’ve decided to use it as the inspiration for my next piece of flash fiction and hope to have it posted soon. 

Ahem, Where’s the Suggestion Box? (Personal Messenger, Perhaps?)

My blog is still in the early stages and I’ve been enjoying this experience. I’ve gained about 40 followers in eight weeks. That’s 40 more than I ever thought I’d have. I’m very excited to know that people are interested in something I have to say.  I initially started this blog in order to get my ideas out into the world. They weren’t doing me any good inside my head, so I thought I’d try a different approach. (Although, I haven’t actually posted my stories yet. So far, it’s mainly been tidbits about my life.) I like to think of everything until now as an extra long introduction. In the coming weeks, I plan on posting random chapters of my novel in order to receive some feedback from fellow writers.

I have nothing but good things to say about WordPress. I love posting and hearing people’s opinions about something I’ve written. It’s been an extremely positive experience and I’ve received some valued encouragement. I love reading other’s blogs and hearing about their life. I’ve come across phenomenal authors and love reading their stories.

I love reading comments and commenting on other’s blogs. This is one of the only blogging platforms that allows for such interaction between users. I can easily access content that suits my interests. I just have one teeny tiny suggestion! I think a personal messenger should be added. Sometimes, I want to ask questions or offer encouragement that I may not want to be public. Some topics are sensitive and at times I wish I could contact someone privately.

Hmm, just thought I’d throw that out there.

Does anyone else feel this way?

Back To School ( Less Time To Write)

Well, Summer’s officially over. I return to my classes Monday, August 18, 2014. I’m entering my second year in college and I’m excited,despite my nervousness. I didn’t have an unpleasant experience last year; it just wasn’t what I expected it to be. This year, I hope I’m able to open up more to people and feel more comfortable being myself. I’m always so guarded and have a hard time allowing people to get close to me.

 My summer was both horribly enlightening and a pain in the butt.  I wasn’t successful in finding a summer job and getting pneumonia in June halted my healthy living journey I am on. I was surrounded by several members of my family and still felt alone. Chaos ran rampant and if I craved a quiet moment, I would have to wait until 3 A.M when everyone was asleep.

 Dealing with negativity out in the world is expected. There are just some mean spirited people out there. But, to feel ostracized in my home is something I’ll never get used to or accept.  There were many days where I just checked out mentally in order to cope. I would focus only on my writing and the imaginary world my mind had created. I found solitude and peace within the pages of my little pink notebook. I would stay there as long as I could and only come up for air. This allowed me to not only deal with all of the negativity but also make great progress on my novel. I wrote all summer, but in the last month I wrote every single day. Some days it may have been a short story or free writing. Other days, it was journal entries and most days I was working on my novel. The story that I started with isn’t anything like the direction it’s going in now. I’m elated! I realized that my characters weren’t as developed as I wanted them to be. When I went to edit and provide more back story, I realized that I had major plot holes and there was a vagueness to it if that makes sense. I knew what I was trying to say, but it may have been unclear to the reader had they read it. I revamped it and it’s almost a completely different story.  I still have a long way to go, but I’m feeling positive about the changes I’ve made and the direction it’s heading towards.

Sadly and Gladly, I’m about to head back to school. That means less time for leisurely writing and more time writing college essays. (I could write an entire book on how much I HATE writing essays, but I digress.) I’m happy to finally get back into a routine that mirrors normalcy and have something to stimulate my mind. Still, I’m a little sad the summer came and went so quickly. [I know, there’s just NO pleasing me! Right?  :)

 Hope you all had Great Summers!